50/50

"Most of us miss out on life’s big prizes. The Pulitzer. The Nobel. Oscars. Tonys. Emmys. But we’re all eligible for life’s small pleasures. A pat on the back. A kiss behind the ear. A four-pound bass. A full moon. An empty parking space. A crackling fire. A great meal. A glorious sunset. Hot soup. Cold beer."

I can't let things that didn't happen bring me down. I really should just appreciate the moment. I might not always achieve greatness but I can always try to. I just need to remember that it's not as necessary as I assume it to be. No one wants to fail, but you can't help but fall a few times. I just need to wake up in the morning and feel blessed that I can make my day however I want it to be.

People change. There's no doubt about that. Hopefully it's always for the better. I used to hate my parents when I was a kid, but now I love them. I used to always fight with my sister, but now I always think about what I should do to make her not worry about me. I used to hold grudges, but now I don't give a fuck. Things end up the way they are now from being self aware. Awareness of your past thoughts and actions. Come to an understanding and accept it.

I really want to make amends but I just don't have the heart to. So for now I'll keep on doing what I do. No remorse, no hard feelings, no sorrys. Life moves on.