Passing through.

"serenity to accept things I cannot change, courage to change things I can, and wisdom to know the difference"

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My dad has this quote he always tells me every time I get in some sort of trouble or when we argue. He always puts up these corny lines but I know he means best. He says "Bobby, life is like a mountain. You're trying to reach the top and that's where I believe you'll be happy. I can't push or pull you. I can only guide you and tell you where to place your footing and it's your choice to listen to me or not. I'm only watching out for you and telling you which rocks are stable and which rocks can bring you down." My dad tries to lecture me in a mix of engrish and Laotian so it's kind of hard to understand but this is the gist of it. My parents lecture me all the time. I mean ALL the time. One of the reasons I barely go home or ask them for anything. It's all good though, I know all they have is love for me and it's nice to have somewhere I can always go back to no matter what happens.

I'm good now. Enjoying the things I have and the people that are around me. School has been fun and it's nice meeting all these new people. My work schedule is a lot easier this semester and it's great to work in the morning instead of at night. I feel like accomplish more when I have my evenings free. Living in the house with 5 other guys has already been a good experience. It's nice to grow a little bit closer to a different set of friends. Shooting pool everyday and singing karaoke every night will be some good memories. It's good to laugh everyday and it's convenient to be the center of where everyone meets.

I've been a little unstable these past couple days. I've been thoroughly disappointed on many occasions and I don't expect much of anything anymore. I had a moment of self-revelation today. All these emotions, people, and false hopes are just confusing me with what is really important. No matter what happens, everything in the world is still moving. I'm just trying to keep up with it all. I can always think about things and let myself feel down but I can always make myself feel better. Think simple and let me do me. It's like having fun by making it fun. Things won't always go my way so I just have to adjust. I'm trying real hard to look at the bigger picture. To stand on my own two feet and not give anyone the worst of me. I'm making an attempt to feel apathetic about it all but it's hard. Especially trying to care less about certain people. Feeling like my effort and thought go to waste. Ahhh it sucks so bad but what can I do? Just continue waiting I guess. Everything will turn out fine though, I'm sure.